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Working on forgiveness
I have failed, and it's okay.
I have started reading Slow Productivity by Cal Newport, and it's challenging me—in an uncomfortable but maybe long-term good way. I have been feeling sad this week and most of last week.
When sadness becomes persistent and consistent, I need to start mental health exercises to manage it and stop it from becoming a slide into something more serious.
Part of my sadness is related to my lack of progress on my goal of self-publishing. I planned to publish four books this year, but I have published none.
As the end of the year draws closer, I am more aware of just how much I haven't achieved, and this disappointment with myself leads to this general sadness and anxiety.
I have allowed myself to become unbalanced, and I must regain the balance. Part of that is looking at forgiveness, which I read this afternoon.
Forgive yourself. Then ask, “What’s next?” The key to meaningful work is in the decision to keep returning to the efforts you find important. Not in getting everything right every time. — Cal Newport
Self-forgiveness can be harder to practice than in theory. That sentence resonated with me, so I highlighted it. Then, I wrote my feelings about this in my art journal. Now, I am in the process of…
